slumber

Okay, somebody stop me. Or rather, somebody start me. Hahaha, what a lame pun. :| Right, see, A while ago I had 24 hours to write my Secret Santa fic. Now I have fifteen hours left, and nothing to show for it except for drabbles which are NOT due until this Saturday. And two icons.

Right.

Anyway, one of my problems in life is that I don't know what I want half the time. Or, even when I do, I can't decide among a lot of options. This makes me a horrible and greedy person, but also, yeah. This makes me horrible and greedy. LOL. And anyway, I just got a shibby new icon - *points, everyone please take a moment of your time to gaze in awe and discover just why I know I shan't be truly happy this Christmas for I won't get what I want oh WOE is life and its TRAGEDY* - and I decided to put it to good use. Hee, this post fits it somewhat, after all. :P

Christmas Wish List:

1. Blaise Zabini (I swear I'll take him any way I can. XD)
2. More people to join

shadows_edge (and be active in it!)
3. DSL (Oh please oh please oh please)
4. Extra userpics for

slumber_8 (let's see if I can somehow convince my mother to use the credit card for this one, lol)
5. A paid account for

creativeslumber (Hmmm... perhaps she'd agree as well?)
6. A flip phone (I love my own, but really. It's just about ready to die on me. :|)
7. A Series of Unfortunate Events book set
8. The Chronicles of Narnia book set
9. The L Word (on VCD, woe is the life of one who lacks a DVD player)
10. A DVD player (mwahahahaha. woe.)

Oh, wait, also. Link me to your Christmas wish lists?

And also, today's thoughts during Church:

Right. So I've never been blissfully (or unblissfully, whatever) been part of a couple, right, and I ought to blame it on the fact that I was in an all-girl school all my life, where relationships with girls were on superficial, experimental levels, and relationships with boys were even shallower. At least, in my humble opinion. *shrugs*

Well anyway, yes. So I've never been attached and stuff, but that's not to say there haven't been what-if's, could-have-beens, and almosts. Right, well, officially speaking, there've been two. Sort of, haha. Nothing ever gets official, not even officially unofficial. Well, yes. I found out weeks ago that the only guys who's ever officially courted me hanged himself a few months back. Because someone dumped him. :| (At least it wasn't me, yeah, but dude. I may have been the first one to break his heart. Whoa. Although. To be fair to me, he was kind of a jerk, and I was eleven years old.)

Last Friday, I found out that the other what-if person apparently did it , er, rabbitly (pardon the pun) with his current girlfriend. Which could have been me, except I was the one he rebounded on, sort of, from his ex-girlfriend, in the way that he talked to me a lot about sappy things like loving so much and other vomit-inducing sentiments. Mwahaha, yeah. I didn't really like him romantically, as he was a wimp and, er, yeah, but, you know, he could have been. I'm just a bit pissed off at him because he TOTALLY never stayed in touch after he turned me into his listening ear and shoulder-to-cry-on and stuff, and never even told me when he got himself a ditzy, sappy girlfriend. (Who did not know which team to give the championship to in last year's tournament, btw. IDIOT. LOL, the bitterness is for our team, who LOST unfairly, not for me.) And also, he so did not show up in my deb, though he PROMISED to.

Right, anyway, point is. They were what-ifs and could-have-beens for a reason.

*is evil*