In Which I Read Like Oprah :|
Jan. 31st, 2005 06:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
slumberToday I asked the college secretary about shifting courses.
There is something utterly, absolutely liberating with getting up and taking the first step to doing something you've always told yourself you were going to do but were too terrified to even think of really doing. In hindsight, it seems like a slightly useless action as it's only one step of many and the rest will be terrifying and all, but considering the fact that I'd wanted to do this since early September, had planned on going through with it during October, etcetera, I feel fabulously fantastic. This makes it a little bit more real, and I never knew how terribly trapped I'd been feeling until now.
So, yes. Go me!
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unrouen and I have is our desire to break the monotonies in our schedules.
The difference betweenunrouen and I is that she is gutsier and more inclined to try scary new things out, and she does break monotony in ways I only think of doing.
And I realised, even though every once in a while I do something out of the blue, sort of, I am still tied down to a schedule. There's still, I dunno, times when people know where to find me (Except class, of course, that's silly, I can't miss class. Not always, I mean.) and where I know I will be. It's, well, I've developed habits and I'm quite comfortable with them, but I don't like getting bored and I realise I'm heading toward that direction with the way I'm going, thus.
Changing my schedule. Starting today.
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It's interesting how I started writing in this LJ and kept it from RL because there were things I didn't feel comfortable talking about in real life--with real life friends, because they see me a certain way and I don't really know how they'll react to whatever I feel like saying--and then I end up writing elsewhere and keeping it from fandom because there are things I don't feel comfortable talking about in fandom--maybe for the same reasons I don't feel comfortable talking in real life, maybe for some other reasons too. I've a sinking feeling that if I keep this habit up I'm going to run out of sounding boards and then, where would I be?
How fascinating.
There is something utterly, absolutely liberating with getting up and taking the first step to doing something you've always told yourself you were going to do but were too terrified to even think of really doing. In hindsight, it seems like a slightly useless action as it's only one step of many and the rest will be terrifying and all, but considering the fact that I'd wanted to do this since early September, had planned on going through with it during October, etcetera, I feel fabulously fantastic. This makes it a little bit more real, and I never knew how terribly trapped I'd been feeling until now.
So, yes. Go me!
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The similarity
unrouen and I have is our desire to break the monotonies in our schedules.The difference between
unrouen and I is that she is gutsier and more inclined to try scary new things out, and she does break monotony in ways I only think of doing.And I realised, even though every once in a while I do something out of the blue, sort of, I am still tied down to a schedule. There's still, I dunno, times when people know where to find me (Except class, of course, that's silly, I can't miss class. Not always, I mean.) and where I know I will be. It's, well, I've developed habits and I'm quite comfortable with them, but I don't like getting bored and I realise I'm heading toward that direction with the way I'm going, thus.
Changing my schedule. Starting today.
*
It's interesting how I started writing in this LJ and kept it from RL because there were things I didn't feel comfortable talking about in real life--with real life friends, because they see me a certain way and I don't really know how they'll react to whatever I feel like saying--and then I end up writing elsewhere and keeping it from fandom because there are things I don't feel comfortable talking about in fandom--maybe for the same reasons I don't feel comfortable talking in real life, maybe for some other reasons too. I've a sinking feeling that if I keep this habit up I'm going to run out of sounding boards and then, where would I be?
How fascinating.
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Date: 2005-01-31 03:17 am (UTC)(Which makes me think it's really wrong that I found out your LJ and have you on my friends list. Maybe I should just friend your real life LJ... if I find it anyway...
Good luck on shifting. Really.
There's one thing I know now that I'm graduating, it's that you should love what you're doing. If you feel trapped, then get out. Fast.
The more time passes, the more the cage shrinks.
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Date: 2005-01-31 04:06 am (UTC)Also, I want to know EVERYTHING so don't hide anything. :P Though, yeah, I know where you're coming from. Only unlike you I could never be bothered trying to keep up with two journals. This one's taking enough effort as it is nowadays.
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Date: 2005-01-31 04:32 am (UTC)Haha, it's alright, really, I mean. Fannishness in common anyhow. I can't believe you don't know my RL LJ--that's the one EVERYONE knows about. Which is why I hardly update it. XD
Thank you. And that is so true. So so true. The awful thing is, you don't even know how much it's shrunk from when you first got in until you've gotten out of it.
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Date: 2005-01-31 04:36 am (UTC)Oh, I'm pretty open about most things still, don't worry. If anything remotely interesting happens, you'll know. ;) Haha, naaaah, it's pretty easy to just privatise entries anyway, in case I desperately, absolutely feel the need to. :P
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Date: 2005-01-31 05:29 am (UTC)But still. <3
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